i posted this song on march 25th, 2007. when i took a weekend off at the sea, i didn’t make any music, but recorded this video. finally i get to put it online. enjoy.
(i am leaving tonight for vienna on the night train. this will be the last song till the 1st of may - unless i find time and space to record in vienna, which i doubt even though i wish. have a good weekend - i hope i will, we will be playing live with my band on saturday. keep your fingers crossed.)
i feel silly to sing a song
about a train coming home
but the reasons they’ve all gone
i’m wrapped in feelings living on
and the image that wants to come
is a train coming home
i know, my voice is shaking
i know, my voice has been too loud
i hope i’ll figure it out
i hope i’ll figure it out
i know my voice has been too proud
i hope i’ll figure it out
i hope i’ll figure it out
i said what i had done
i said what i had wanted
i said why i did run
i said why i felt haunted
you said what i should do
you said what you would want me to
a bit too late in the game
we sat down and fell silent
we said our last good-bye
and i don’t feel haunted anymore
one day, i hope to walk down this street
facing ahead and not fighting the urge
to turn back
one day, i hope to climb up this tree
looking ahead and not scared i might
trip and fall down
one day, i hope to swim through this lake
sun on my back and i’m light and i
won’t sink and drown
one day, i hope to run through this field
steps rolling smooth and my heart beats a
slow steady drum
and i know this day will come
one day, i hope to step on a plane
heart beating slow, i’m content
and i’m not scared to fly
one day, i hope to dream in my sleep
dreaming of sadness and all the things
i could have been
and i know this day will come
and i know this day will come
(i am having a hard time figuring out what i want. what i wish. so while i am running around, creating a mess, i wish - that wish i know - i wish i could at least know that i did what i wanted to do.)
i know it is my fault
i wish it was my choice
but for anything i do
i do ask myself the same
is it my choice?
or is it just my fault?